As I prep to come back to the United States for a month I have been thinking about starting something new on the blithe seaside, doing some style and travel posts. I love lifestlye blogs and I thought it would be neat to show you the capsule wardrobe that I packed for Spain, some holiday looks and what I wore as I jet around for my visa, visting family and a wedding. Often bloggers are encouraged to have some sort of niche, but who has a niche in real life? We are all made up of different interests and I think it’s beneficial to share those. In the future you can look forward to some monthly favorites posts, outfit ideas and maybe even some travel guides.
If anyone is reading my blog, you know that I have not been posting something everyday as I committed to January 1, 2017. This is not to say that I do not write often, but recently I have been having this internal debate about why I am creating, and why I put my work online. This has mostly occured becuase of two discussions that I had recently.
I had a conversation with a very brilliant friend and mentor of mine who made me realize how much of a privelege it is to not think about what language to write in, and to not have to think about the colonialism of the English language. He is Indonesian and came to Seattle for school and will be starting his Phd next year for English. He reads and writes a lot, but doesn’t do a lot of creative writing because he is dealing with these deep philosophy of language and culture questions.
The other important converation I had was with a gal pal of mine who makes monthly zines of her favorite poems and art and makes a fair amount of her own art and poetry, but doesn’t publish online, because she creates for herself, doesn’t want to publish just for the recognition.
This combination as well some personal tragedy recently has been one of the reasons that I have stopped posting on this blog as much. I do want to continue to put work online, even just to cause me to create work that I feel is both worthy and not too personal to publish. Therefore I am going to try to write often, but not to stick to a schedule any longer.
being in a relationship is a lot like being an x in a polynomial function. for example …
0 * (x+5)(x-4)(x^2-3)= 0
if one person thinks it means nothing then no matter how much the other person wants it mean something it still means nothing
if there’s one zero in the function the whole thing equals zero, no matter what the rest of the function looks like
When I yell during an argument it is often because I do not feel heard. When others yell at me, I have often assumed it was also because they did not feel heard. Or rather they heard, but they did not listen, did not comprehend what I was trying to convey. This incongruity has plagued me for the past few months, that what I want to communicate is not often what is received. It is as if I playing a game of telephone with the whole world.
So to remedy this in some way, I have found a place to share my musings and thoughts, quotes that I like, song lyrics that I am working on; the words that have not been listened to. As my new year’s resolution, I hope to write something everyday all of 2017. Whether I will actually be able to do this is somewhat unpredictable, but the real purpose of this blog is to practice writing. There will be many poorly written words, but hopefully there will also be words of meaning and truth.
— Emma Johnston